Recently we celebrated Easter, and whether we feel attached to the stories about Jesus, his crucifixion (death) and resurrection (rebirth), for many people it is a respected Holiday.
I always look so much forward to a couple of days off around this sweet transition from Winter to Spring. As previous years I went with my boyfriend and his family to a summerhouse in North West Denmark. The fact that we are surrounded by Nature and has a very poor reception, one of my rituals upon arrival is turning off my phone.
This year I was a little curious what would happen when I did that. Normally I have a very strict rules about my smart phone. No phone and computer activity after 8pm, since it has such a bad influence on my sleep. The months before this holiday had been very packed with work in order to plan European Yogi Nomads in Aarhus and making arrangements with the many teachers and presenters at Copenhagen Yoga Festival this summer. I broke my own rule and had some very late evenings in front of the screen. And I felt how I was using more energy than I was gaining from my personal yoga practice. My phone was becoming as an addiction to me. Every spare minute I had made me reach for it to check what had happened on social media and my emails. I am amazed how fast things can slide when we let it.
I was actually sure I would desperately miss my phone the first couple of days after turning it off. And then the exact opposite happened.
It was quite beautiful. As it turned out I had so longed to turn that thing off and simply soak in Nature. I arrived at the summerhouse the day of the Full Moon. We went for a walk that first evening, just as the moon started to rise. It wasn’t quite dark yet, but the sky had this amazing deep blue color and the Moon… Oh my Goddess! She was huge, round, totally illuminated and the color as she rose was this amazing deep warm yellow. It was stunning! I have experiences quite a few Moons, but this one was definitely one to remember.
I actually did have a moment where I wanted to run home and get my phone to take a photo, but she was spellbinding beautiful and I couldn’t stop starring at her. I had the ocean on my left, her in front of me and the dunes to my right. It was as if everything stood still for several moments, as if I couldn’t move. And when I surrendered to the moment and stopped caring about the phone and photos for Instagram, something amazing happened.
In my head these sentences started to appear, as if someone or something beyond my power began to form a question. I am so very fond of questions and believe they are one of the most powerful practices we have. The minute we stop questioning there is a risk that teachings turn in to preachings. Anyway, these sentences started build themselves and then it became a repetition of these very words:
What is that one thing that I know
That nobody else knows
The thing I need to share
Before I leave here.
Over and over and over again. Nowhere but in Nature and especially in potent moments as under a Full Moon do I have these experiences of a deep connection to self. It is not with my phone in one hand and my mind on social media. This Winter I have been asking a lot of deep questions in the quiet of my meditation practice. And I absolute love the way answers sometimes manifest as new questions.
The rest of my holiday I hardly thought about my phone and when I finally picked it up the last day to take a few photos for Instagram (to prove I was there, haha) the battery was dead.